(24) But Thomas, one of the twelve, called Didymus, was not with them when Jesus came. (25) The other disciples therefore said unto him, We have seen the Lord. But he said unto them, Except I shall see in his hands the print of the nails, and put my finger into the print of the nails, and I thrust my hand into his side, I will not believe. (26) And after eight days again his disciples were within, and Thomas with them: then came Jesus, the door being shut, and stood in the midst, and said, Peace be unto you. (27) Then saith he to Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands; and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing (28) And Thomas answered and said unto him, My Lord and my God. (29) Jesus saith unto him, Thomas, because thou hast seen me, thou hast believed: blessed are they that have not seen, and yet have believed. ( John 20: 24-29 KJV)
Doubt: A feeling of uncertainty or lack of conviction.
Do you know what I love about this passage of scripture? The patience and also the understanding of Jesus. If we were to read a few scriptures up we know that Jesus had appeared to the other disciples but Thomas had not been among them vs 25 it mentions that the other disciples made known to him that they had seen the Lord. In Thomas’s defense it was a rather large claim. It was no secret that Jesus had been crucified and “laid to rest”. So Thomas’s response was basically one of yeah, I’ll believe it when I see it. The moment I’m able to put my fingers into the holes in his hands, that’ll be the moment that I believe that you have seen the Lord. Truth is Thomas represents many of us today and not just because he had his doubts. If were honest we all have doubted something that the Lord has promised, but no I’m not referring to that type of doubt but the type of doubt where I just can’t take your word. So until I’m able to touch him for myself I won’t believe. Thomas had to touch Jesus for himself. As believers let’s stop being offended if were witnessing for the Lord, but something is keeping them from believing. Some just need to touch Jesus for themselves! And guess what! Jesus doesn’t mind in fact eight days later when they met again this time Thomas with them. Jesus appeared.
Then saith he unto Thomas, Reach hither thy finger, and behold my hands, and reach hither thy hand, and thrust it into my side: and be not faithless, but believing.
I love the fact that God will meet us anywhere, even in our doubt! Honestly it’s one of the things that I am grateful for that he’s not deterred by it. He told Thomas here I Am touch me, touch my holes and put your hands on my nail prints. Touch me and believe. To doubt is to have a lack of conviction. God wants to meet us at the place of doubt, he does not want us to lack conviction. How can we go out and preach Jesus if we don’t have the conviction our selves? Thomas had a calling on his life and that calling did not have the room or the time for doubt. In Matthew 28: 19- 20 it says. Go ye therefore, and teach all nations, baptizing them in the name of the Father, and of the Son, and of the Holy Ghost. (20) Teaching them to observe all things whatsoever I have commanded you: and lo, I am with you always, even unto the end of the world. Amen. Here’s one of the reasons why Jesus was willing to let Thomas touch him. Thomas had to go out to all of the nations and preach the word of God. Not everyone would receive him. it’s still the same today. I don’t know where God is sending you in your ministry and yes you do have a calling and a ministry, but be prepared not everyone will receive you. Jesus knew what he as sending the disciples out into. So he was saying Thomas I need for you to believe and not doubt. I need for you to be sold out for this thing. I can’t afford for you to be tossed here and there in your beliefs about me (Jesus). You see that it was important for Thomas to be convinced in the resurrection of Christ. You see if he didn’t believe that Christ had risen then it meant he no longer believed that Christ existed. I can use this has an example to explain what I meant. My father died in 2011 he no longer exist here on this earth, but he existed. It is important for us to know without a shadow of a doubt that Jesus has not only risen, but he still exist among us today. God wants for us to know that even if I have to let you touch my son in order for you to believe then I will let you. I am willing to meet you in your doubt because I’m sending you places where some will try to test your faith, and some will try to discredit the fact that Jesus is even real. God is going to send you to a place where you may be hated and told that your belief in God is just a “fairytale”, but he cannot send you out if you’re not fully convinced that I am who I say that I am. These disciples died believing this thing.
Some of you may be thinking. Well, Aqua I believe in God, but I doubt some of his personal promises to me. Does this disqualify me from being used by God because of that bit of doubt? No, it doesn’t. I’m not referring to that type of doubt. We all have those times of doubt from time to time, and God wants to meet you in that place of doubt also, but I’m referring to he place of doubt where you wonder if God actually exist in the first place. That he created the heavens and the earth that he created you and that you did not just evolve from an ape, but that he God created you for a plan and a purpose to advance his kingdom. God is willing to meet you even in your doubt. He welcomes the chance to either have you touch him, or for him to touch you.