Gifts & Callings

For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance. (Romans 11:29 KJV)

In 2007 God told me that I would write for him. Up until then I liked to write what I would not exactly call romance novels, but fiction non the less. I loved the idea of creating something from nothing. That I could bring anything that I imagined in my mind to life with just a pen and a notebook. At that time in my life I was really into Karen Kingsbury books. I called her the Danielle Steel of Christian novels. At the time when he told me that I would write for him, I thought that it meant that I would write Christian novels. Would you like to know a secret though. It was shortly after this reveal that I lost my passion for writing. In fact I begin to despise it. I despised it because even though I loved to write. The people around me didn’t like to read. So, it was hard to find someone to read what I wrote. That was discouraging and I began to wish that God would have given me another talent. Something else that I may be able to glorify his name with. Over the next ten years I went from the girl who lived to write all day to the girl who wasn’t motivated to write anything at all. So over the next ten years I chose to ignore the gift that God had given me. On the occasion if my church asked me to I would write a poem (even though poems were not my thing) or I would write small plays or short biblical stories for church programs.  Truthfully though my heart wasn’t in it. You may be thinking what does this have to do with the above scripture. I’m getting to it.

For the gifts and calling of God are without repentance.

Every time I would read this passage of scripture. I never paid that much attention to the fact that the Apostle Paul mentioned both the gift and the calling. I concentrated more so on the calling and the word repentance. I knew that Paul was letting us know when God called us to something, that he never regretted putting that particular calling on our lives. So, because God didn’t regret putting that calling on our lives he wouldn’t take it away with one wrong move on our part. Even if we were to fall into a backsliding state if God called you to preach that anointing would still be there. Even if you were not walking circumspect of your calling. This is not an excuse or a justification for us to go out and live in any sort of way because we know that the calling will always be there. It’s to show you just how powerful the calling is on our lives. The scripture didn’t just say the calling of God are without repentance, but the gifts and calling. You see back in 2007 when God revealed to me that I would write for him. He knew that I would go through that stretch of a period where I had no desire to write, but he never repented of the gift that he gave me. Even though I myself despised it. God does not regret the gifts that he has given us, even if we stop working that gift. He doesn’t regret it because since he’s given us the gift as well as the calling he knows that somewhere along the way that the two would meet up. Do you know that your gift and your calling is entwined in some sort of way. In fact your gift opens up the way to your calling. If you ever want to know what God has called you to do. Just take a look at your gift. the scripture even says in Proverbs 18:16 A man’s gifts maketh room for him, and bringeth him before great men.

Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it. (1 Thessalonians 5:24)

Over the course of 2007 to 2017 every once in a while God would drop in my spirit one word and that word was WRITE. Truthfully, though I still wasn’t into it. So with the exception of church i literally didn’t write. Then in 2015 God spoke to me these words. Marred In The Master’s Hands. I knew that God was going to give me that ministry. Which if you were to know me you would know that title is so fitting. I’m the most messed up Christian that I know. I would tell God all the time I think that you love me, because I give you something to do!! At the time when he gave me the name. I remember being really excited about it and talking to my pastor about maybe starting a Marred In The Master’s Hands ministry at the church. He asked me to let him pray about it, but the spirit didn’t lead him to that and to tell you the truth it didn’t feel right to me either. I knew that God had given me this ministry but I didn’t exactly know what he wanted me to do with it. Then over the course of the next two years God would give me direction a little bit at a time. MARRED IN THE MASTER’S HANDS (name of ministry) WRITE( ministry involved writing) and finally the word  INTERNET (blog) and I was like you have got to be kidding me. When I had a Facebook, I rarely wrote anything on it. Over the fear of being ignored and I remember thinking if I can barely write on Facebook there is no way that I could do a blog and it was also the fact that I mentioned I’m the most messed up Christian that I know. Here’s the thing though the scripture tells us in 1 Thessalonians 5:24 that Faithful is he that calleth you, who also will do it. You see there was a purpose of giving you some of my testimony and it wasn’t to shine the spotlight on me. It was to show you of God’s faithfulness to us in our callings. You see even though I was unfaithful to what God had put inside of me. God had remained faithful. When I despised the gift of writing. He still whispered in my spirit. WRITE. You see, even though I would not want to have anything to do with my gift and therefore my calling. My gift is to write and my calling is to teach God’s word and truthfully I couldn’t do one with out the other. Although I tried to run from it. God remained faithful and not only faithful he remained patient with me through this process.

I want to encourage anyone who knows that God has given you either a particular gift or calling on your life.  That somewhere along the way you felt that you lost because like me you despised the gift or just plain old got tired of it. Take that gift God has given you and work it to the glory of God. You have no idea what doors God is going to open up for you because of it. I want to encourage those who knows that God called you to a certain area such as evangelist, pastor, teacher, elder, deacon etc, but who felt  that life got in the way and you slipped and backslide. So you no longer feel worthy of the calling. Get up and get back in line. If God gave you the calling whatever you did does not disqualify you. Again it does not mean to straddle the fence, but it gives us  the confidence in knowing that since the calling was given to us by God. That one he did not repent in given it to you and two before we were even born he factored in every mistake that we would make and every misstep that we would take.  Yet,he still called you to it. Remember that the gifts and calling of God are without repentance for he trusted that you would walk in what he called you to do!


God’s blessings,




4 Comments Add yours

  1. Gifts and Callings~loved it! Thank you for sharing your story! Bless you.

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    1. Thank you!!! God bless you!!!

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  2. nickyab says:

    Thanks Aqua, for such a beautiful story, it spoke to me, God bless you in the name of Jesus 🙂

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    1. Thank you!!! I’m glad that it spoke to you I pray God’s blessings upon your life in Jesus name!!!


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