(31) What shall we then say then to these things? If God be for us, who can be against us. (Romans 8:31 KJV)
I thought about titling this blog if God be for us. As it says in the scripture, but I wanted to make it more personal. I wanted the people who read this to walk away with the knowing that God is for them. I haven’t written in a couple of weeks. I would like to say it’s because I’ve been busy with no time. The truth of the matter is that the last couple weeks have been emotionally trying. I’ve been angry, I’ve been moody and snappy, but most of all I’ve been tired of people thinking that I don’t struggle. I was tired of the two second prayers that you give to those that we think has it easy. I was tired of the respect of testimony. Everybody’s testimony matters not just a select few. Truth is I’m not the talkative type (unless I’m really comfortable around you). I’m the loner, I self isolate every where I go. For me being around people is draining and I’ve always been the type to hold people at arm’s length. I don’t praise God like most people. It’s unlikely that you would catch me falling out screaming and shouting. That’s not me and probably never will be and because of that a lot of the times I feel discounted. I praise God and give glory to God through my writing! Truth is that a lot of the people who know me will never take the time to read my blog. In their minds I will always be the one that God can’t use because I don’t give glory how they think I should. Question who are we to judge how someone else give their praises to God.
For the past couple of weeks I mediated heavily on this scripture. If God be for us, who can be against us? God was showing me something these two weeks. A majority of the time when we read this verse, our minds automatically go to our enemies. Those who don’t like us and who wants to see us fail. I begin to realize though that it’s not always our enemies who are against us. Sometimes it’s those who are the closest to us who may not necessarily want to see you fail, but who may not believe that God is backing you. It could be family, close friends, Co-workers, church members etc. Any body who does not believe that God called you for a specific purpose is actually against you. I do want to clarify one thing. There may be some people who see the calling on your life who may tell you to wait because they know that God is still molding you. People like that are not against you. You can always tell the one who is against you when you walk away either discouraged or with the sense that I’m going to prove you wrong about me.
I had a conversation not too long ago with someone who made the statement “God bless her for what she attempted to do for you” I was hot! I knew that they were referencing my blog and I knew that they were telling me to give it up. They know that I don’t have a lot of followers(that’s cool) and that I don’t get a lot of views (that’s fine) So they thought that I should give it up. Here’s the thing though God called me to this I may never be the next TD Jakes or John Gray, but I am Aqua McGee my platform may be small but as a fellow blogger The Graced Citizen always tell me. If I just reach that one I did my job. Here’s the thing that I had to learn these last few weeks. Since God is for me it does not matter who is against me. Whether that’s an enemy or a friend. Truth is I’m tired of seeking the approval of those who will never see me. In some people eyes I will never measure up and that’s OK. I know that God is for me so it doesn’t matter who is not. The God who created me tells me constantly that I am good enough and to keep going!
That my friends is all that matters.