(13) Brethren, I count myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before. (14) I press toward the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. (Philippians 3:13-14 KJV)
In September. I joined a new church and if you read my post Jesus Lost Nothing. You would know that was a big step for me. Simply, because I had to get pass the fear of being Aqua. I couldn’t see past the person who had the public mental breakdown. I feared that I was nothing more than my past fall. I feared letting another church getting close to me. The apostle Paul tells us in the above scripture. I count not myself to have apprehended: but this one thing I do, forgetting those things which are behind, and reaching forth unto those things which are before. In essence what Paul is saying. I may not fully understand all of the mysteries of this gospel, but the thing that I do understand. Is that I can’t hold on to what happened yesterday. I can’t hold on to the hurts, the pain, the mistakes of my yesterday. As I mediate on the words of Paul. I realize that in order for us to press towards the mark. That we must first be willing to let go of what was. To let go of what didn’t transpire. Paul tells us that he presses towards the mark for the prize of the high calling of God in Christ Jesus. So are we to do the same. To press means to move by means of pressure. To press is not an easy thing. It is so many things that we have to overcome in the press. The biggest thing many of us have to overcome. Is our personal demons. That tells us we are not good enough. We have to press pass the voice that whispers to us that we will never reach the prize. I am learning that it takes work to move forward. Our past will try to dictate our future to us. I had to realize and I hope you realize as well. That we are not the sins of our past. Like Paul we must choose to press towards the mark of our high calling
The motto of my new church is. A place to begin again. In order to to start the process of beginning again. I am understanding that I must first learn the art of letting go. It is impossible to begin again. Yet, still hold on to the old. Our old habits, our old way of thinking, our old relationships that either serves us no purpose. Or a relationship that should have expired a long time ago. It can be hard letting go of the familiar. Even when the familiar is hurting us. I am having trouble of letting go of a friendship that truthfully should have died years ago. I hold on because of love of this person, but I am understanding that not everything that I love should be held on to. I am learning that it takes faith to let go. To let go means to be momentarily empty, but it also frees you up. To be able to receive the best that God has for you. My prayer for you is that you learn to let go of all that means you no good. That you let God bring you to where he would have you to be.