And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me. (2 Corinthians 12:9 KJV)

I am in a season of my life. Where I do not have the strength to make it. Left to my own devices. Lately, over the past few weeks. I have been finding myself screaming into a pillow in sheer frustration. Or locking myself in the bathroom crying on the floor. Discouraged, because I can’t see the hand of God in my situation. Mind so fogged that the only prayer that I could pray was. Lord, please help me. If I am to be honest, my true prayer was Lord, help me out of this situation. I felt as though I was slowly losing my mind. As, I thought that I was barely holding on. The Holy Spirit reminded me of the words that the Lord had spoken to the apostle Paul. My grace is sufficient for thee. According to Merriam-Webster grace is simply unmerited divine assistance given to humans for their regeneration or sanctification. Sufficient means enough to meet the needs of a situation or a proposed end. So when scripture tells us that his grace is sufficient for us. The bible is letting us know that we didn’t do anything to earn this grace. It is unmerited. It is really an undeserving grace. In Ephesians 2:9 scripture tells us that for by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God. So we know that God’s grace is his gift to us. Whether that gift is being saved by his grace. Or as in the case of the apostle Paul the grace to get through an infirmity that Paul thought was unbearable. If you go back up and read 2 Corinthians 12:7-8 Paul talks about a thorn in his flesh. Which he called a messenger of Satan to buffet him. Buffet in this instance means to struggle with blows; to force one’s way by a fight or struggle. So Paul was saying that Satan was throwing blow after blow at him. The struggle was so bad that in verse 8 it tells us that three times he asked the Lord to take it from him. However, instead of taking it from Paul the Lord answers him and tells him My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. In essence what he was telling Paul was that I know that the attacks of the enemy may be too much, but it is my grace that is sufficient for you. My grace is more than enough to meet the needs of what you are going through. Satan wanted to buffet him. Cause him to struggle. In order to keep him from being exalted or going up higher in the Lord. The Lord tells Paul that it is my (the Lord’s) strength that is made perfect in weakness. In other words. When you wanted to give up and throw in the towel. It was the Lord’s sufficient grace that kept you going. When it looked like the enemy was going to have his way. It was God’s sufficient grace that carried you through. The enemy will try to buffet us in hopes that we will call it quits but its God’s sufficient grace that enables us to keep walking with the Lord. Even on the days where you’re crying on the bathroom floor, because you feel that you can’t make it another minute. Truth is on my own. On your own. We can’t. It reminds me of the scripture in 2 Chronicles 20:15 for the battle is not yours, but God’s. I am beginning to understand like Paul that this was never my fight to fight. My job is simply to walk in what God has caused me to walk in. That means even if I have to walk through the blows that the enemy sends my way. The same goes for you who is reading this. The enemy will try to buffet you every chance that he can. To keep you from going higher in God, but it is God’s sufficient grace that will carry you through any and every situation. It will carry you through every attack. He won’t just give you the strength. He will be your strength.

I thought that I was going to go on a month long hiatus, because mentally I was falling apart. However, the Holy Spirit said not so. I am about to show you what my grace being sufficient really means. What it truly looks like. I am learning that in God’s grace is sanctification. Which simply means the action of making and declaring something holy. It means to be set apart for a sacred purpose. I am learning that God can take us out of any situation if he so chooses to, but sometimes he chooses to show himself strong on our behalf by just giving us the grace to make it through what should have killed us long ago. I am learning that his grace is sufficient.

God’s blessings,

Aqua.